Run thurs and other stuff

Yesterday we had agility run thurs at the field. It was very hot.  Sunny and 85 degrees. The poor dogs.  They all did really well. I think we arent adjusted for the heat yet. For my first run I tried to make it seem just like a  trial.  No free running or going on the field ahead of time.  When it was almost my turn I warmed her up just like I would at a trial.  I was most interested to see what she would do at the table. So I set my camera up toward the  table. I wish I had zoomed in  some to be able to see better.  She got right on the table. No problem. After my count, I ran out of the ring to reward.  After that I came back in and finished the course. (that part wasnt like a trial)  She had great contacts  except the teeter.  She did her old behavior but thats not surprising and I know I have more work to do.  She had great weaves too.  I had bad handling. I tried not to do any front crosses, only rears on the first run but It didnt work great.  So my second run I did do front crosses.  The second run was much better but she had a bad teeter. I didn bring her back to re due it and the second time she got it right. (Some good news is I finally figured out how to edit video on my new camera)


I woke to a bad dream this morning. I was dreaming that a snake bit my finger and wouldnt let go. I grabbed it behind the head and kept squeezing but it wouldnt let go. I ran outside ( I dont know why I was inside and a snake bit me) and started screaming for someone to help me, but no one would. People kept walking by me and no one would stop to help. I kept pleading for help but no one would. Then I woke up. I know why it was a dream about snakes. On Friday night I watched a show about a guy who got bitten by a snake on the hand. I hate snakes. And now that its warm, they will be showing up at the parks. Ugh! I think that no one would help me had to do with things going on right now and I feel in over my head. One: My son isnt doing well at college. There is no way he is going to pass this quarter, IMO. And the worse part is he isnt even trying. If he were trying and couldnt do it, I would be more understanding. But I read one of his papers and he put no effort into it at all. So I told him, when he flunks out this time. He has 6 weeks to get a job and then he has to get out of the house. I just dont know what else to do. Ive tried everything else. He needs a reality check on why college is important and why you should work hard to achieve success. So I feel like a horrible mom for kicking my kid out of the house. This is the hardest thing Ive ever had to do and I feel sick over it. Why is he being like this. We arent lazy parents. We all work hard. Stephanie isnt like this. She has goals and wants to do things with her life. I may not agree with every thing she wants to do but at least she has goals. Lou has no goals and I have no idea why.Ugh, This is making my life horrible. Its on my mind constantly.
Two: The big school field trip in which we take 900 kids on buses to Myrtle Beach for a lunch at Medieval Times. I have to teach all the teachers to give medications so they can take care of the kids on thier bus. They have to be taught to give epi-pens and inhalers. At least no rectal valuim for seizures this time. Then trying to make sure that the parents listed the medication on the permission slips. Calling them , some of them , based on the students medical condition, I tell them they have to send the medication or their kid cant go on the field trip. That makes me popular. I scared that Im going to miss someone and the teachers arent good about sending me the permission slips with medications on them like they are suppose to. So I email them and ask them if the student is going on the field trip and they say "oops, sorry I missed that one". And then they send it to me. All this is stressful, being solely responsible for this. Ugh!
Three: Be the trial chair for the club's agility trial. I dont want anything to go wrong. There is just to much to list here of things that I need to keep track of but its a lot. Why did I agree to do this? I guess because no one else would do it. I dont even want to talk about all the problems here and how people in the group keep quiting. Im not a good leader and I never said I was either. Most leaders make you want to join and help out and I dont think I instill that in people. Im truly not a people person.
Four: We are losing our agility field that the club uses. I guess we'll have to put the stuff in storage but that means we cant use it. I feel a lot of responsibility to try and find a field too. Why, well I guess I really like going to the field. Lots of room to run my dog, which I dont have in my backyard. Not sure how we are going to fix this problem.
Five: My back is killing me for the last two days. I hiked 4 miles on Friday and then Saturday morning it was really hurting. The only thing I can think of is that Im compensating for my ankle and stressing my back. Then running agility yesterday, that tiny little bit, has killed me. Ugh! I guess Im going to have to go to the doctor because I dont know what else to do. I cant live like this. Ugh!