Friday, March 14, 2014

Catching up

Im sorry I haven't been posting. Im not sure to many people are even reading anymore.   Ive been feeling depressed. Not like "cant get out of bed" depressed. Just not doing much of anything. I haven't been walking my dogs much, sad.  My fibromyalgia pain has gotten really bad.  I hate my job and I don't even know why.  They people I work with are really nice. Its just hard to sit in an office, all day by yourself, and see a bunch of kids that don't want to be at school.   And then have to deal with parents who are mad at you for stupid things. I could see if I made a mistake and you were mad but the stuff they are mad about is just dumb.   You are mad at me because I called you and said you cant send your kid to school with a blood sugar over 500 and spilling moderate ketones. You should at  least call me and give me a heads up so I cant help your child. Not let me find out on my own. And now you are snippy with me on the phone when I call??  I just don't get it. I didnt do anything wrong.  Its stuff like that all day long.   So then I find Im depressed by the time I leave there.  I eat lunch alone. Then my husband works out of town , so Im alone at home too. Its just all getting to me.  I went to the doctor this morning and told her we need to change something because Im miserable.  So she added a medication and will see if my pain gets better. I keep thinking how am I going to hike in Oregon next month if I cant even walk 4 miles at the parks without going into severe pain. I want to have a life and do the things I enjoy, not just exist.

I took theses pictures yesterday at the park. This cracked me up. I think this house was for birds. But I guess the squirrels felt it would make a good home.

Then this bird pecking holes in the bird house.

Took Miley back to the ophthalmologist.  They couldn't find anything wrong, or why she is squinting so much. So back to the old medication , Optimune and recheck in two months.  She is better but I feel like she isn't opening her eye completely, but not really squinting.

Last weekend we went to  the trial just on Sunday.  It was a nice day.  Sunny and warm.  Miley Qed in T2B but I messed up Java's run.   But she had nice teeters, you had to do it twice. 

Miley almost double Qed.  One dropped bar. Ugh.  Oh well, I would rather have one dropped bar then not be able to run her at all. 

Java had nice runs.  We got the wrong entrance to the tunnel, I should have layered that jump instead of going it. It pushed her right into the wrong tunnel entrance.  But she got the opening which was getting more dogs.  And she finally got her first excellent jumpers Q.


Sara said...

Beautiful runs from both dogs!

I hope the new medication helps you feel better. Life sure would be easier if we didn't have to work! Summer break is coming....

Reilly-Denny Cowspotdogs said...

I don't know how you do what you do and cope with fibromyalgia at the same time. I can understand having has Lupus since my early 20's and know what it is like to deal with flare ups and those time when feel just too tired to do anything. But gosh have to deal with kids and their parents...that would send me over the edge. Maybe a job change is in order...something that doesn't stress you so much as stress is also a contributing factor to fibro.

Reilly-Denny Cowspotdogs said...

Oh - I read and I would miss your gorgeous photos :)

Amy / Layla the Malamute said...

Beautiful runs!

I was wondering when the Oregon camp was. I knew it was coming up but didn't know how soon.

I read your blog all the time, just don't comment often.

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I've been feeling similarly at work and the best explanation I've come up with is that I feel zero appreciation. People yell at me for things totally out of my control (doctor didn't call in their RX, insurance raises their copay, they didn't think to bring in their new insurance card, etc). nobody cares about the 50 good things I do, only the one bad.

Helen said...

Hope things at work get better for you. Its tough when you're not appreciated. Is it just your regular vet that is seeing Miley? I took my Ceilidh to an eye specialist once; we're lucky to have a full service hospital here. Great runs, too bad about the bar.

OBay Shelties said...

Still reading! :-) hope you feel better; nothing worse than feeling so down. :-(

Dawn said...

I'm sorry Diana. I read...just don't comment as much as I used to...and I get behind. I love your photography and I love your dogs and I love that I get to see them run....I wish you felt better. I bet it's just overwhelming sometimes not to feel good and to work at a job you don't like and to struggle with dog issues. Spring will be here soon, should be there already! Time to take the dogs for a long walk!